life....sometimes i sit and ask myself, what is this life all about? why are we alive and what are we doing alive? what is my purpose of living? what is my aim in this life? well if i choose to look @ it from my Christian background, my catechism teaches me that i'm alive because God made me. & why did God make me? " God made me to know him, to love him, to serve him, & to be with him in the next (life) ". & i believe this whole heartedly........hmm,.but when moods set in, & i sit down alone & depressed i take a very sour look @ it all. i'm alive, yes! but what's the fun in this life. what exactly makes it fun? that i wake up and go spend some money on frivolities, what makes that fun? i get in a bus and then on my way to work, i see an accident site and see some dead bodies, & i wonder, that might have been me. these people woke up this morning, & got about their businesses, but something unplanned cut short all those dreams. the "life" that's all so valued, all so important, all the aspirations, plans, worries, & cares,....all ended in a second. then i go back to asking myself, if all this we value so much in life, can be cut so short and so quickly, then is it something to be valued that much? why dont i value it less & live so carefree? why dont i do whatever i like, since this life is value-less ? i just might die anytime, & lose it all, so i might as well go about and live wrong.